“ If you can turn back time, what did you wanted to change in your past life”?, I asked my cousin. She told me what she wanted then she asked me back. I think deeply, I can’t answer her. When I look back at my past, I don’t regret with what I’ve done because I learnt a lot from my mistakes. Everything did change me to become a better person and really challenge myself in life.
Some still don’t know who am I. Maybe some of you judging me after saw my FB or this blog. Yup, I like to have fun but I know when, where and who I’m with. A few months ago, a guy (a.k.a manager of DNMC) sent me a message through my wall in FB and said bad about me and Sabahan people. FUCK YOU!!!. It did happened again yesterday but not the same guy, still (a.k.a manager of DNMC). SOOO FUCKING SHIT!!!. Not even them but got this girl from Penang named Lue Xioa Xue (if you see this name, PLEASE DO NOT ADD her.
What happened to those guys?. Well, this is a story of me for today. Probably, you have seen my Bee or I always mentioned her name. Yes, she is my 7 months old baby girl and I’M A HAPPY SINGLE MOTHER :)
Before I had her, I worked in DNMC as a Sales Executive for 1 and half years without taking MC or holiday even on the Christmas Day. Ok, you might confused with my job. Well, it’s a MLM (Multi Level Marketing) and I think you know what’s the meaning of it. Yes, I am too committed with my guys because I want to become a manager and run my own office in Pahang.
Suddenly my x-manager (she became manager because my team hit the point, yes she was my x-leader too) found out I’m pregnant, and she asked me to choose either my career or the baby. At first my choice was career because I really want to achieve my goal. So she gave me a week to abort it. Here the story goes….I’m searching where I can do it with some friends but it’s too DAMN EXPENSIVE RM3k because it’s already 5 months. WHERE CAN I FIND 3k IN 1 WEEK!!!?
I called all of my friends (useless) and did planned to borrow from ALONG also. They advised me that might get into trouble especially my health and sure the ALONG… I take their advise and told her that I want to keep the baby and I willing to take the challenge about what people said about me.
Within in 24 hours, she asked me to resigned because she can’t accept it. When I asked her, she gave me BULLSHIT reasons… Do you know what the reasons are…? 1. You can influence other leaders. (BABI!!! if they want to, why should we care..That is their personal life. TAK KAN ITU MAU MELIBATKAN KERJA JUGAK!!!) 2. It’s about PRIDE. Pride is a big thing. (YAYAYAYA….I know but I already told you so that I willing to take the risk) 3. You are to popular, a lot of people know you. (HUH??? Apalah kaitan?????) 4. If you are the manager, you will do the same thing. (WTF!!!!!) Is this a personal or business problem?. I don’t know what will you think. Nobody can bring me down SERIOUSLY because the more they tried to, the stronger I become.
SHE FIRED ME!!!! I don’t know why because my sales performance more better than her so….hmmmm….speechless…..4 months, no company wanted to hire me because I’m pregnant. I don’t dare to tell my parent. Ohhh yaa, I’m staying with my foster parent. I thought staying with them is going to be fine but WRONG!!! SO WRONG!!!
LAGI LA STRESS!!! (It’s a sensitive issue, so tak boleh diberitahu).Plus the guy macam CHIPSMORE!!!!! After I delivered Bee, within in 2 weeks I called my parents and my father flew to Penang then brought me to Rose Virginie Good Shepherd Centre in Ipoh. I stayed a month before I can bring Bee back to hometown.
How about the guy?…Welll…I DUMPED HIM for my own good. 4 months live like in the HELL but managed to live a new life and I’m happy with it because my family and relatives can accept BEE & ME. Going back to hometown is the best decision I made.
In KK, I met up with a few friend (they used to be worked in DNMC) as usual they asked me about IT. Do you know what, Ell asked me to work with them again but I’m so sorry after you spread the news saying I’m sleeping with guy, gatal lah even I had scandal with one of the manager…that is so MEAN… I’m with you for the whole year and this is you told them. KIMAK!!! JAHATNYA SAMPAI BAGITAU YANG TAK BETUL. Tinggal pun sudah la satu rumah, saya mau cuti pun ko tidak bagi langsung. Some of the manager said to me in bad expression. Make me feel sad because they don’t know the truth is.
What am I going to do with my life?. I fall once, doesn’t mean I fall forever. BOUNCE BACK!! THAT’S WHAT I’M GOING TO DO!!!. Thanks to my beloved family and relatives for being here for me. Love You!!!
P/S: Rose Virginie Centre offers a safe haven and temporary shelter for women and girls in crisis situations such as:
*Women, mother and their children who are experiencing abuse in their relationships or through domestic/family violence. * Teenage girls/women in pregnancy who are unwed or in crisis. * Women experiencing conflict in their marriage. * Women in personal or family difficulties. * Survivors of rape or assault.
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